I guess you are wondering where I been

7/5/26

Where do I even begin ?

In Spring of 2025 I was diagnosed with GAD and MDD. Looking backing, I guess it was apparent to everyone but me. I was often called " on edge " and "tightly wound" but I have been called many things so I thought of it as nothing. After my diagnosis, It was real for me and I couldn't lie to myself. The big spiral began as I started writing.

While I did enjoy the process of making the Golden Griddle employee hand book. My life beyond the pages fell apart and that made me isolate a bit more. In my book I set the rules. Beyond that I had no control. So I stayed to myself and on occasions, i would post on Tiktok. The focus was The Golden Griddle Employee Handbook. My finances, my social life, my eating habits were no longer a priority.

When the manuscript was complete, I spiraled further. Creating Brandy's world keep me anchored and when the creative process was done I had no net to catch me. You ever have that dream, where you are just falling ? Yeah, that…but imagine being awake and feeling that way . I stopped posting on social media. I procrastinated with my editing. I didnt even bother to update my blogs.

Thankfully I was self aware and started making the changes I needed to balance myself. I started taking my vitamins and meds consistently. I started reaching out to friends. I stopped doom scrolling and eating my emotions and sat with many things I refused to face for so long.

I apologize to everyone for my absence. I will continue editing now, why making time for my loved ones and eating better. Writing this book is by far one of the hardest things I have ever done but I will not give up. I have come too far to stop here.